Social Ineptitude

I've never been able to understand some of the finer points of social interactions, some of the bigger ones even. The combination of a plethora of different personalities and an infinite number of situations for those personalities to be put in results in such a complex web of results that the physical universe pales in comparison. The multi-dimensional space of emotions, thoughts, and fate itself is impossible to concieve. How am I supposed to know what is happening with the people around me? How can I know or calculate the right thing to do? The odd thing is that I calculate with a mix of some sort of fuzzy logic that I can't define and intuition. My calculations are often wrong.

When confronted with something I don't understand, my first reaction is to ignore it. Without understanding, how can you begin to calculate a result? To know something is not the same as understanding it. My second reaction, if it can't be avoided, is to learn it. This is not hard for something I can learn from reading a book. But how can you understand the social part of the human condition from a book? Therefore, I have always tended to ignore those social intricacies that mystified me. While this worked fine for a while, it tends to slowly lose friends without gaining more.

Changing from this pattern is a must. I cannot just dismiss social interaction because I am woefully bad at deciphering both the actions of others, and their reactions to mine. This means I must make mistakes and learn from them; Try, fail, and try again; Lose in order to win. Win at life, because life itself is not a game that you can lose and try again.