Social Ineptitude

I've never been able to understand some of the finer points of social interactions, some of the bigger ones even. The combination of a plethora of different personalities and an infinite number of situations for those personalities to be put in results in such a complex web of results that the physical universe pales in comparison. The multi-dimensional space of emotions, thoughts, and fate itself is impossible to concieve. How am I supposed to know what is happening with the people around me? How can I know or calculate the right thing to do? The odd thing is that I calculate with a mix of some sort of fuzzy logic that I can't define and intuition. My calculations are often wrong.

When confronted with something I don't understand, my first reaction is to ignore it. Without understanding, how can you begin to calculate a result? To know something is not the same as understanding it. My second reaction, if it can't be avoided, is to learn it. This is not hard for something I can learn from reading a book. But how can you understand the social part of the human condition from a book? Therefore, I have always tended to ignore those social intricacies that mystified me. While this worked fine for a while, it tends to slowly lose friends without gaining more.

Changing from this pattern is a must. I cannot just dismiss social interaction because I am woefully bad at deciphering both the actions of others, and their reactions to mine. This means I must make mistakes and learn from them; Try, fail, and try again; Lose in order to win. Win at life, because life itself is not a game that you can lose and try again.

Twadget Gadget for Vista

At about the same time that I started this blog, I started twittering. (See that "Twitter Updates" on the right?) Its a neat idea and I am actually keeping up with it. I work on a Vista machine at work so I wanted to find a gadget that would twitter for me. I found Twadget and loved it. But there was one thing that annoyed me: If you started a twitter post in Twadget, but decided not to, there was no way to get the post form to go away unless you removed and readded the gadget! So, I fixed it.

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Let me know what you think in the comments here.

Going nowhere and doing nothing while I'm there

Yes I know it's my fault, but trying involves just that. Why try when I can continue as I am without effort. No effort goes into my daily life. The current in the whirlpool of my existence overrides my willpower. I cannot get out. Well, I don't think I can get out. Such is the catch-22 of not doing anything that I think will involve to much effort.

I don't mean any sort of physical exertion, rather, doing things that I have not done before. Getting outside my "comfort zone" (which is a cliche, but originality escapes me) takes a certain adventurous spirit that I only have when I am the worse for drink. (I thank Sir Arthur Conan Doyle for that phrase) I favor inaction in any uncomfortable situation. The power that holds me is not so much my inaction, but the pervasive anxiety of the unknown.

Taking the metaphor of life as a path through the forest, I have found a clearing and set up camp. It has all the basic necessities of life (wow, I now have an urge to watch Jungle Book), with very little threat to my existence. However, there is nothing here. I took a wrong turn and ended up in the Doldrums.

It's time to break camp.

Hello World!

I have been meaning to start a blog for some time now. Actually, I have created and deleted 2 because I never kept them updated. They were never read because nobody ever knew about them. This time I will succeed. (hopefully)

For the first post I didn't know what to write, so I just spot my thoughts at the moment. Well, filtered because my fingers can't keep up with my head. I was thinking of doing a full bio, but I hate describing myself. What do I say? What would people think about what I say? The second question would be obsessed about for a long time after this post so I refuse. Besides, anybody reading this will most likely already know me better than I could say in any bio, no matter how long or thorough it may be.

First Post!